"In order to deceive others, we explain with theory after theory, but it all ends in laughter and sometimes we even amuse ourselves before god laughs"

     I wonder if they still dream of me, maybe think of me, even a tad bit. I just want to know if I made a small impact on their life. That must sound egoistical. It's almost like it was a campfire, you don't remember every campfire you make, but sometimes the moments stick, I want to be that campfire in their mind. I just want to hope they still think of me, even a little bit, I guess it'd bring me peace.

                        I don't understand why I look for love, maybe it's to distract myself from my crippling isolation? who knows. I don't know why I isolate myself either to be honest. I'll get so anxious that I'll just lock myself up in my own mind-prison. It's unhealthy, I know, but to be honest I don't know how to stop. I'm always happy when I go out but it just scares me. I don't know how to explain it properly. Anyhow, I've been trying to chill out as of recently, like to become someone I'd like to be around. Hey, I'm stuck with myself, might as well be someone I enjoy being around. Life is strange, I wish I fully got it, but really I don't get it one bit.

 

               You wait, little girl, on an empty stage
                        For fate to turn the light on
                                    Your life, little girl, is an empty page
                                            That men will want to write on

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 King of Wands

leadership, vision, big picture, taking control, daring decisions, boldness, optimism