“I felt so lonesome, all of a sudden. I almost wished I was dead.”

    I find loneliness both comforting and terrifying. I want to tell people what I'm feeling, my thoughts, my dreams maybe even my fears. But, I don't want to, I like my distant solitude, I like people not knowing what I'm feeling, it makes it easier to connect when people don't know what's happening. Maybe one day I'll find someone who gets me, I know, I express that a lot. 

I'm still a silent director, I don't exactly know how to change, I think I just grow. That's the only way I've found that has worked. you learn to live with your worst traits and the pain you feel. Well, I'm not in pain, I don't feel much, I let what happens, happens. I think at this point my catchphrase is "Shit happens"

Who knows, life is weird.

Eight of wands

Quick action, receiving news, gaining momentum, exciting times