Thursday, November 3, 2022

A weird twisting road

I’m not stupid, I just act stupid. When I was younger, old acquaintances used to treat me like I was
the dumbest person. I never fully had the chance to express my views and fully articulate things.
As a result, I started acting stupid, Always underestimating myself and never really trying. I
stopped caring. I started treating myself like a joke. The people I’m surrounded by care so much
about IQs and being better than you that you stop trying to compete after a while. I like to annoy
these people. I annoy them by being literal and ditsy, fully becoming the dumb blonde. It’s funny,
It’s like a game I play. How pissed can people get at me? No one’s every really given me the
chance to act any other way. I understand things, I would dare say I’m decently intelligent.
Maybe that’s why I play this game with people.
It’s fairly easy to mess with people, to manipulate people. I know it’s easy, so I don’t do it, unless
I really want to. I’ve always felt like I’ve had a strong disconnect with others. Likewise, I see
others as things to watch, things to analyze. It’s fun to pick apart emotion, to never see them as
fully something. I’m probably not a psycho, I just watch.
“Brains are an asset, if you hide them.”
― Mae West

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